After lunch, at work, I usually go for a walk alone. This is my time to unwind and detach myself from the busy world (at least I try to). I don’t enjoy texting, talking or even listening to music during that time because I believe that defeats the purpose of being with myself. However, I am a dreamer and a planner and find myself thinking mostly about future events, which of course haven’t happened yet. Some are practical planning of juggling a full-time career and responsibilities as a single mother. But some are simply day-dreams. I am quite aware of my day-dreams and thus avoid crowded areas for walking. I choose paths with occasional walkers.
I recently came across a book named ‘Power of Now’ by Eckhart Tolle and realized how little time I spend in the Now. The good (or maybe the bad) news is that I am not the only one who either reflects on the past or plans for the future. My mother is a victim of reflection of the past. Every time I call India to talk to her, she muses over the joyful times we shared as a family when we were young and adds “Those were good times.”
In Eckhart Tolle’s own words “Not to be able to stop thinking is a dreadful affliction, but we don’t realize this because almost everybody is suffering from it, so it is considered normal. This incessant mental noise prevents you from finding that realm of inner stillness that is inseparable from Being. It also creates a false mind-made self that casts a shadow of fear and suffering.”
So, yesterday at work, I chose a different path. I decided to walk on a path frequented by walkers because I wanted to stay in the Now, at least for a little while. I will try to stay on this course with the hope of enjoying the beautiful Now.